i need

a new good book to readdddd, i keep reading my faves all over again, and its unhealthy hahah. i should let go of the past. while im in the blog mood, i may aswell state a few facts: school is officially over, had grad and all, and tomorrow everyone will get their exam results. some people seem excited which kind of makes me want to throw up lol, no actually thats wrong, they probably worked really really hard and their future probably depends on them and they deserve to be happy and excited about them. I, on the other hand, am dreading that shit. probably because i didnt try really really hard and my future doesnt depend on them, i'd rather not look at them at all, i dont want to be asked how i did for the next 2 weeks by everyone i know. its just going to disappoint them and make me feel the need to explain myself. which i dont want to dooo, does this seem like im really stressing and emo about this all? cause im not, really, im just finding something to whinge about cause i love to whinge. im really excited for christmas! weirdly enough, im excited for the whole family thing :). its elynors birthday this sunday, 18888, eighteen, 1818. i hope she has a blast, i really do. as jealous and depressed i am about it, she's been waiting a while too. little el's going to be all grown up . im hungry. xxxxx